ITS GONNA BE OVER! EVERYTHING WILL BE OVER SOON! WE WERE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER. EU NEVER CHERISH ME. NEVER TREASURE ME. NO MORE CHANCES. NO MORE SWEET TALKS FROM EU. NO MORE PROMISES. ALL THOSE THINGS EU TOLD ME. ARE ALL LIES. ALL THE PROMISES EU GAVE. ARE ALL BROKEN PROMISES! ITS OVER! OVER! OVER!
i am sadd. really sadd. i dont wish to have this kinda of ending. but its really no point for us being together. eu should continuing having your freedom. your friends. your games. GUYS WONT CHERISH THOSE WHO TOOK THE FIRST STEP. perhaps i am not the one for eu. i am not the one that eu point to your friend. and say "there she iish!". I AM NOT THE ONE! i wanted to be the girl for eu. but i had never given a chance. i am wrong. i shouldnt have taken the first step. i shouldnt be friend eu. i shouldnt called eu at that time. if only i didnt called eu. but i am really happy that dino told me. eu wanted to know me too! i am overjoyed. delighted. bla bla bla. wo shi fei cha de kai xin de. ni zhi dao ma. maybe eu dont want to know me at all. its dino who lied to me. i dunno.
we started msging each other on that day. 3march2006. i remember clearly. i still save those messages that eu send me in the first. the first sms eu sent me "Ya hi.....". i remembered. we meet up at amk mrt station. the first day we went out. but with dino. eu treat me to long john silver. at dohby ghaut mrt station there. and after eating. eu was like very sorry to me. cause eu gotta meet your friends at parklane. i was quite disappointed. but i never take it to heart. went out a few times with eu. but its very shi bai.
we starts off quite well. but didnt meet up with each others. your excuses - schooling. gaming. friends. sleeping. ALL YOUR EXCUSES! as times goes by. eu seldom contact me. no more calls from eu. and now. we are drifted so far apart. no more sms. no more calls. i hate this feelings. i dont wish to have a silent break up. i told eu this. but eu didnt reply. wad do eu mean by this. i dunno. i dunno!
what are eu doing now. who are eu with. what eu are thinking. i dunno! i dont know eu at all. i dont understand eu. i am such a failure girlfriend. but its not all my fault. eu didnt gave me the chance to do that. eu didnt. eu take me for granted. maybe eu just want the status of being attached.
i remembered that time. i told eu about my dream of eu and another girl. eu told me its just a dream. and it wont happen. eu told me not to worry. eu wont be a two-timer. i can trust eu. i can have faith in eu. but please. dont make me loss that trust in eu. and that faith in eu. i wanna be with eu. wanna be with eu as long as we can goes. i love eu. yes i do. but i cant continue. this way. its really gonna be over between us. take care. (:
